August 25, 2022: Birthday Letter To Dad

Dear Dad,

You would have been 81 years old today. I thought I would be fine this year. However, I struggled a bit. Not as much as last year, so healing is happening. Earlier last week, I scheduled a therapy session just because I needed some clarity on some things in life. I was not thinking I would need it due to still grieving your death. However, I did need it for that, at least partially.

I finished renovating the house around Christmas time. It was the wildest thing I experienced in life. You would be astounded at how amazing this house turned out after renovations. The neighbors are still in awe. This house feels like home because there were so many great teenage memories. 😭😭😭

The three years since your death has changed me so much, some of which are the following:
🔸Life is STILL short, and I will embrace so much more of it.
🔸I am STILL truly enjoying moments in a way that I never have before in life.
🔸I am surrounded by people who love me.
🔸I have built deeper friendships with a great circle of people.
🔸I have opened myself up to people more than ever.
🔸I am coming up on four years at the company, and I moved to a new department, and I am KILLING it, dad!
🔸I am doing something closely related to what I was doing but way more advanced with amazing career potential.
🔸I traveled a lot. I went to the Dominican Republic, Key West, Puerto Rico, and London.
🔸I am planning a lot more travel. Some work and some pleasure.
🔸The real estate market is bananas. YOU had the right idea.
🔸Your dream has altered the path of my life.

You have missed so many things, some of which are the following:
🔸X is doing well, and he is doing well mentally and thriving.
🔸I am in the second year of having the LLC.
🔸I am working on one of the most life-altering projects I have ever worked on, in life.
🔸The relationship is over because the ex-bae had narcissistic traits.
🔸The ex is a little stalkerish. YIKERS.
🔸I am rethinking HOW I plan to renovate the remaining properties.
🔸I circled back to the idea of relocating.
🔸X is managing the duplex.
What I did today:
🔸Lit a white candle in your memory.
🔸Checked on the big project I am working on for the LLC.
🔸I had a productive therapy session.
🔸I wanted to go to Cracker Barrel because that was your jam, BUT monkeypox. YOOOO..
🔸Played Serpentine Fire, by Earth Wind & Fire, on vinyl.
🔸Pondered the next chapter of my life.
What I will do this year:
🔸Enjoy more life than I’ve ever enjoyed.
🔸Live more.
🔸Love more.
🔸Travel more.
🔸Embrace more.
🔸Experience more.
🔸Secure MORE bags

You taught me so much, and I will continue to live my life based on some of those life lessons. The lessons I will continue to focus on are to stand in my truth even if it is unpopular, always lead, and NEVER follow fools. I will be embracing those lessons for the next fifty years. You were not perfect, but you will always be my superhero.

Love forever,
The one who always has and always will love you.

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