May 15, 2021: Letter to Dad, It Has Been Two Years Since You Left Your Physical Body

Dear Dad,

I miss you, but I am HAPPY. I KNOW you would want that for me.

It has been two years since you left your physical body. The world shifted so much when you left this world. The universe will never be the same because I will always want you here with me. Sadly that will always be impossible. There is not a day that goes by that I will not miss you. I will always picture you driving up with a fruit salad or an apple fritter. When you left, I never thought I would recover from that pain. I admit it was the hardest thing I had to get through. With all of that said, I am at a good place in life, and a lot has changed since last year.

What I am doing today:
🔸 It is Saturday, and I woke up earlier than I originally planned.
🔸 I planted tomatoes, bell & hot peppers, lettuce, spinach, turnip & collard greens this morning.
🔸 I gave up wine, because they exacerbate fibroids. So, I will toast your life mentally with a glass of wine.
🔸 I am going to create some graphics.
🔸 Enjoy some time with Bandit.
🔸 Finally, I am going to light a white candle in your honor.

What you missed:
🔸 The entire country is still in the throws of the pandemic, but it is slowly getting better after a year.
🔸 45 was a straight-up clown who allowed the pandemic to get out of control.
🔸 A vaccine was “rolled out” super fast. Lots of folks are still hesitant to take it, sadly. I took it because mutant variants won’t catch me slippin.
🔸 We have a new family structure. It is much more healthy, and there is ZERO dysfunction.
🔸 Xae’s girlfriend, Maggie, now lives with us.
🔸 Xae & Maggie have a Pit Bull pup, and his name is Bandit. I “pup sit” during the day. They bought him home on the day you last spent in my house, before going to the hospice. That seemed monumental for some reason.
🔸 I completed therapy after fifteen months, and it really changed everything about my life.
🔸 My therapist was a magical superhero, and I will be eternally in her debt. I feel like she saved my life.
🔸 I met someone wonderful during the Covid lockdown. Real deal “partner in crime” material.
🔸 The new BAE has a family that is NOT dysfunctional, and I am looking forward to spending holidays surrounded by NORMAL folks.
🔸 I still love the job. I am teaching SalesForce regularly, and I will be teaching another course as well. That training is the course I built while you were sick.
🔸 I rescheduled the trip to Key West.
🔸 I am planning a trip to the Dominican and Costa Rica this year.
🔸 The Hurst family is still great.
🔸 I revised my plans to buy in North Carolina or Arizona. I am planning to relocate permanently outside of Philly.
🔸 I started a garden again this year.
🔸 Settlement for the first house is in two weeks.
🔸 Doreen bought the house. I know you would have opinions about that, and I laugh about it often.
🔸 ALL of the properties are in or close to Trump’s Opportunity Zones. I love that I will be able to capitalize on something put in place to exploit Black People.
🔸 I start renovations on the first house within a matter of weeks.
🔸 I have a master plan that real estate will allow me to pull off.
🔸 I started coding class, hated it, and dropped out because frig zeros and ones. I legit DO NOT care.
🔸 I started an LLC. I will have more to tell next year.
🔸 I started working as Marketing Director with a nonprofit, Hood Medicine. You would have discouraged me from doing that because there is no salary involved. It is so rewarding, and I’m happy to be involved in this project.
🔸 My view of practically everything is forever changed.
🔸 I have fully embraced a life that is good for me that revolves around my happiness.
🔸 I am happier than I have ever been in life. The only thing that would make it better is if you were here, in your physical form.

What I will do for the rest of 2021:
🔸 I am starting one huge renovation project and one enormous, life-altering renovation project.
🔸 I plan to travel more.
🔸 Continue making new traditions.
🔸 Continue to focus on myself more.
🔸 Love more life.
🔸 Love more people.

You taught me so much, and I will continue to live my life based on those life lessons. Some of those lessons were to stand in my truth even if it’s unpopular, always lead, and don’t follow fools. I will be embracing those lessons for the next fifty years.

You were not perfect, but I know you always did the best you could. You will always be my superhero.

Love forever,
The one who always has, and always will love you.

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