The funny thing about progress is there’s a change that goes along with that. Sometimes it’s a subtle change, but sometimes it’s a drastic one. In Part One, Progress, I discussed the things I did to make some forward momentum. That involved me looking at my behaviors, and making a conscious choice to make some changes. Making change is hard, and the progress that I made was just a small part of the ongoing changes I must continue to make.
Therapy is hard. I will never lie about the difficulties of digging into the deepest part of your soul, spilling your life’s tea, and allowing those tea leaves to be read can be brutal. After that, listening, sitting with, and then addressing YOUR behaviors is the change part that is the big win if you can make it. Change is hard. Making change based on self-analyzing after a soul spilling session is even harder, but this is a win.
2019 was a year of change for me. During 2019, I maintained, my son and my job have been my norms. My son is the same but, he’s not he’s growing and turning into an adult. So, not really. My job has also gone through an evolution. Ultimately, nothing is the same everything has changed.
During this powerful session, we discussed change and how much it has impacted my life. A lot of this change has been around life, some has been about changes in relationships and more has been about my perceptions of relationships. The transformation of my life has been a drastic and metaphorically almost destructive level. Due to the powerful nature of the drastic changes in my life, the discussion took a supremely fascinating, and almost mythical turn. We talked about Oya, Warrior Queen. She was thought to be one of the most powerful African Goddesses responsible for changes that occur in an almost destructive manner. Whether this goddess is real or not, I don’t know. However, I do know the level of changes that she has been known for, has indeed taken place in my life. I am definitely interested in learning more about this goddess of change.
So, since all of this change has happened already, I might as well run right into the fire and continue changing and embracing further change. A part of this will involve things about myself that I think I need to improve upon, and a lot will just be me enjoying a whole lot of life instead of being focused on the happiness of everyone around me.
“What is your mantra or word of the year.” Was a question asked, and at the time, I didn’t know for sure. However, now I know. Change is my mantra for the decade, not just the year.
Keep an eye out for Part 3!
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