Honestly, I am still sitting with session 16 because it is continuing to put some whup on a sista, days later. However, I do remember in a previous session my therapist saying that as long as you are comfortable, there will be no need to change. So until you are uncomfortable, you will remain in the same situation. That’s not what therapy is about because the goal is to look at the issue and make moves toward correcting behaviors and change.
Yes, I am all philosophical and waxing poetic now, but Monday night after this session, I felt dizzy with nausea. Yes, that shit was real. The following morning upon waking, I didn’t feel any better, but I was able to think a bit and start to process everything.
Most of my therapy sessions, I walked away and was able to unbox the hour. I could then come away with a clear next step to take in the process so I could move forward. This session was way more complex. That’s because it tapped into decades of bottled feelings about childhood maternal abandonment and ALL of the things that are the ripple effect from that. It’s an ugliness that you never want to dredge up, but unhealed things have a way of remaining an issue until they heal.
Sometimes things you think are resolved are not. That’s when they continue to impact you in ways that you are unaware of for the most part.
” Maternal abandonment was your first heartbreak, how are you going to address that, Anais?“
I have no answers, but hopefully, I can resolve all of this because this is impeding me from living my best life. I sense my best life hovering within reach. I also know until I can finally put this issue behind me, my best life will remain just out of reach.
This is uncomfortable, but change won’t happen in comfort.
LAWD. THIS. SESSION.
I would love to know your thoughts on this session, therapy in general, and more about your journey in getting better in touch with who you are through therapy. Reach out, let’s chat on FB, IG, and Twitter. Until then, Happy Healing.
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