In my last session, we discussed how I am now having a pleasure centered life versus a practicality centered life. That has been a purposeful path for me as I’ve spent so much of my life living practically. I have no regrets about that, but I am happy to be living in a different space now. All of this movement in this happiness direction has been a result of spending the last ten months in therapy and making a conscious effort to change the path of my existence.
I walked into my therapist’s office on October 10, 2019, with a heavy heart, grieving the loss of my life as I once knew it and looking to move forward but unsure of how I could do that successfully. There were so many things about my life that I was not overly satisfied with, besides this. It’s not that I was actively unhappy, I was just kind of “meh” and going through the motions of life without fully living, loving, and embracing the joys of life. In retrospect, I recognized that this was not the best way to walk through life. I was merely existing, not really living. Although I can’t change that now because it’s in the past, I can alter the path of the future. That was something I realized in the past ten months.
“On a scale of one to ten, with one being the least happy and ten being the happiest, where do you rate your life presently?”
The world is in chaos, the political climate is a circus, the country is in a racial upheaval, and we are living during a plague. I mean, we are living through a real deal, history book level, plague. Like it’s the 1800’s, or something. Even though all of this is happening, I am at level ten on the happiness scale. That is more to do about ME as an individual, that what is going on around me. All of the things taking place around me are pretty horrible, but internally, financially, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually I am at the best place I’ve ever been in life. Had I not been in such a good place, I don’t think I would be handling the worldwide chaos around me as well as I am.
“What from your past would you like to bring with you, and what do you want to leave behind to your present-day happiness?”
Everything about the past ten months has been purposeful in my goal for discovering my own happiness. Moving to a path that I could fully embrace all life has to offer unapologetically was my goal. I am now on that path, and I think a lot of that was due to leaving behind a lot of people and situations the directly contributed to a certain degree of dissatisfaction with how I was living. I only became aware of this after my life imploded last year. Living through that time made me realize I owed myself better than what I had allowed myself in the past. I won’t make the mistake of shortchanging myself again.
Ultimately, all of the people that I left behind were left behind for a reason. I have never regretted that because they earned it, so I plan to keep that same energy. I’m not sure of everything I’d like to bring with me on my new path of happiness, but I do know a lot of those things will probably be lessons, philosophies, and goals. I will spend my reflections week to give thought to how this will show up in my life, moving forward.
I would love to know your thoughts on this session, therapy in general, and more about your journey in getting better in touch with who you are through therapy. Reach out, let’s chat on FB, IG, and Twitter. Until then, Happy Healing.
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