We are undoubtedly experiencing the worse that the universe has had to offer us so far this year. I do not remember a year that has had so many things happening worldwide. Had someone told me last year this time that we’d be experiencing so much upheaval, I would not have believed them. America is on fire politically, racially, medically, and economically. The soul of the country is at stake.
All while watching this country implode, I am at the most peaceful place I’ve ever been. I feel bad about how many people are suffering, but I feel hopeful about where I am as this country implodes. Both of these things can live in the same place.
REFLECTIONS FROM WEEK 44
Week 44 was the last session I will have until the New Year. It allowed me to really reflect upon all of the progress I’d made in my healing journey. Had you asked me before starting therapy if I thought it would be enjoyable, I would have said, “Hell No.” That’s because I’ve always considered myself a very private person. Oh, I share things about myself, but it is usually a very controlled and very strategic sharing of information. I think about what I want to share, the repercussions of sharing it, and then I share, or not. To that point, I learned that THIS was a trauma response and lent itself to my inability to be vulnerable. LAWD, those vulnerability sessions “opened a sista’ up” and involved a level of self-reflection that I am still not capable of even now. I would say I was working on the vulnerability thing, but “Errr.. umm.” ANY. WHO. 🥴 🥴 🥴
My therapist is very much aware of my challenges with this vulnerability thing, but besides that, I believe I have been overwhelmingly successful on my healing journey. My healing process has been playing out all year. Therapy has helped move me to the place where I am now. I am at the most well-adjusted mentally, emotionally, spiritually, peaceful place I’ve ever been in life.
I am at a place so different in my life. In a sense, this has given me a freedom that I’d never experienced before. I feel free from the unhealthy things living in my mind, heart, body, and soul my entire life. Due to this past year working on healing, I feel like I am tapping into who I really am, minus these things. That is huge for me. No aspect of my life is the same as it was just a year ago. I am living a reimagined version of my life, I love it, and I am looking forward to solidifying more avenues of change in 2021.
WEEK 45 TAKEAWAY
There has been a tremendous of self-work put in this year. That was due to the tools provided to me by my therapist. These sessions allowed me to open myself up in a way that I have never have previously. Those changes have allowed me to be in the place that I am currently in now.
With so much healing and embracing changes this year, I have decided to go all in. So I am looking to move my family to a brand new place for a truly fresh start. Had I not gone to therapy, worked on my healing, unpacking my childhood trauma, and breaking generational curses, I don’t know that I would be on this path. I’m pretty sure I would be stuck on the endless avenue of not fully embracing all that life has to offer as I have in the past. I would essentially be JUST existing unhealed instead of living the life that I need to live to embrace all the happiness life has in store for me.
MOVING FORWARD TO WEEK 45 in 2021
I am in a great place ending this year. I am looking forward to moving ahead in life in a way that I’ve never moved before. So, in 2021 I will be focused on realizing my dream of creating that fresh start in a new place. All of my energies will go toward the steps needed to make that a reality.
I would love to know your thoughts on putting therapy session lessons to work during this trying year and in everyday situations. How are you taking what you’ve learned in therapy and applying them to your life in real-time? Reach out, let’s chat on FB, IG, and Twitter. Until then, Happy Healing and Happy Unpacking.
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